How do you describe an experience like Girls Camp?

Now, sing the subject to the tune of "Maria" from The Sound of Music.

But seriously, how can someone describe it? We can tell you stories from camp (like the fire in the shovel or the 5 minute laughing attack Jessica had), but there's no way to really describe what Girls Camp really is. It's spiritual...and a little irreverant. It's hard work, but it's fun too. It's schedules and spontaneity. It's everything amazing all rolled into one!! And Big Meadow is one of the most beautiful places on Earth.

Oh, and of course I'm overly emotional and prob will be for the next few days. Camp does that to a person. It's just so hard to leave, especially after Friday night. I got sad when I saw the first sign of civilization. I almost cried when I saw Lake Isabella. I really want to go back and be with all the girls again.

I was in charge of First Years. I was also the leader of my Heart to Heart group. And those girls were so wonderful. Cheyenne was sweet and funny. Kim was quiet. Megan was helpful. Brynna was SUCH a sweetheart (she's the girl who tied the bowline in 8 seconds after I taught her (which made her one of the fastest bowline tiers)). And all the other girls were just....great. We talked about having the courage to talk about the gospel, expressing love to our family, and needing to read the scriptures for the lessons they teach and not just the stories (although you can start out just reading for the story).

Then there was Golden Hour. I think it was my favorite part. It used to be my least favorite, but I love it now. It's the spiritual part of the day. Talking about love and courage and scriptures out in the middle of nowhere with the trees and flowers all around is...amazing.

Then there was Certification. I taught knots. First I taught myself, and then I taught the first years (and Morgan). I can now tie a double half-hitch, a square knot (actually, I could do that before...), and a bowline. The bowline knot was the hardest, but I got it eventually (up, around, and back down).

Then we had Crafts and Self-Defense. Self-Defense was a one day thing. Mostly we talked and then we learned one move. In crafts we did chapsticks and little wood cut-out word thingys and flower pins and headbands and super cute bracelets made out of washers and ribbon. Crafts are fun.

The best part was (the food and) free time. It was so great just sitting around the camp and talking to all the YCLs that I hadn't gotten to know last year. And now I won't be able to see them next year... NOT THINKING ABOUT THAT!!! So, the other girls are great. Rachel was our Pyro and Shiloh has sexy hair. It's reddish-gold and down to her butt and it was all wavy right after she took it out of the braid. VERY pretty.

Friday night was testimony meeting with our wards. It was...pretty amazing... We all said something, even the two nonmembers who were there. Oh, wait...McKenna didn't say anything. Anyway, then Bishop ended with a prayer. An amazing prayer. We were all on our knees in a circle and it felt just like we were a family so I was crying over that. Then we all went out to the meadow. Which is a tradition (along with eating ice cream from the ice cream man...)

Spent Saturday saying goodbye. It was super sad and I cried a lot... Got home and had to scrub myself twice before I felt semi-clean.

KK, love you!

Utah Sucks

So, the Utah trip was NOT that great. Love my family and all....but I just don't enjoy spending time with them. HOWEVER, my nieces are adorable. And so is my nephew (it's still weird to think that they're not all girls now).

Haha, speaking of adorable, Cady will now take things to people. I just gave her a cup and told her to give it to Nana, so she ran to Mama saying, "here Nana here Nana here Nana." SSSSOOOO stinking adorable!

Anyways, the highlight of Utah (besides my nieces and nephew) was seeing EMILY!!!!! Still excited about it. I spent two night there. About 48 hours altogether. I met her boyfriend (he rocks) and we went shopping. Oh, and we talked A LOT. I miss her SO much!! Anywho, shopping was fun...we bought something as a joke...and I think my stepdad found it...wonder what he's thinking about that...haha.

More recently, I had been trying to get the parents to let me go see Cameron. The outcome: I am not talking to them at the moment. I was MAD when I found out. I've been trying to do everything possible to get them to say yes...and they were taking so long to decide that I was hoping...and then they said no. So I am NOT happy.

And you wanna know what's really annoying? Everyone trying to get me to see their side of it. I DO see their side. I'm not happy with it. I don't plan on being happy with it. I want to be mad. So I'm going to be mad. And I plan on being mad for a few days. The only problem with being mad...it upsets Mama...which makes me feel guilty. Now, if she weren't completely sincere about being upset, I'd just ignore her...but because she's totally sincere and crap...I feel guilty. I can't even be mad when I have a reason to. And that makes me even more mad.

Cady is being cute again. She's "hiding" behind the fan and leaning either forward or backwards so that she's just barely peeking out. And then she laughs when I catch her looking.

I want to go....

So...two weeks...well, let's just summarize.

Worked and hung out with Cameron. Oh, and went to the movies with Lisa (TOY STORY 3!!! Loved it so much!!) and to the mall with Jesse and Brandon.

Cameron is officially gone. For two months. He's working at Boy Scouts Camp for the summer. When he comes back, I'll give him his birthday present...I just need to buy it. Can't tell you what it is....just in case he reads this before he gets it.

Went mini-golfing/ice cream/mall wandering/Walmart with him, Kenny, and Deveney on the twelfth. He hung at my house most of this week. Okay...like 2 days. Went to a party at his house on Thursday. Half of the people there left early because they is lame buttheads, so we went to the movies. Me, Cameron, Kenny and Reggie. I like Kenny's sense of humor. He's easy to laugh with.

Oh, and for some reason (prob because of his dad's job...) Cameron owns two pairs of handcuffs. So Kenny wore one pair to the movies. He kept handcuffing himself to random things in the car (like the steering wheel...and me...). It was fun walking into the movies with a handcuffed Mexican (XP). Watched the movie...it was a late showing so we were kind of loud...no one seemed to care. Then I got dropped off at Sarah's.

Helped Sarah out with the babies while she did laundry. Went home, got ready for work, said bye to Cameron :'( and ran to catch the bus. Worked, went to movies with Lisa, came home, went to sleep, work up the next morning feeling AWFUL.

Despite feeling like I could die any second from pure miserableness, I got dressed and went to take the proficiency exam. This involved a lot of walking and a whole lot of thinking. Luckily, the test is fairly easy.....okay, so it was piece of cake. The essay topic sucked though. lol, don't it always?

Came home, went to the mall, went to dance, came home and crashed so hard. Woke up feeling marginally better, but not good enough to go to church. So I'm at home updating my blog instead of going to church. T_T

Where, oh, where has time gone?

So....went to LA on Friday. It all started that morning at work when Sheri asked me if I liked baseball...and then offered me Dodger tickets. So I called up Daddy and we went. I must say...riding on the back of a motorcycle for 2 hours is not comfortable....luckily we got to stop a few times...

Got there, looked at the official merchandise, saw the prices, and then left the gift shop. Then we went into the field area place. Left field pavilion, baby! Pretty close to the actual game, but can't see the Dodger vision screen thingy. Oh well. The game was great. The Braves fans got booed every time they walked around, two fights broke out where we could see them, the guys in the row behind us got kicked out, and the Dodgers won. Go, Dodgers!! Then we went home...well, tried to. Tooke forever to get out of the parking lot. The ride back was even worse than the ride there. Got home at 1-ish and totally crashed.

Woke up Saturday, brushed my hair, and discovered that two of my exes had invaded my house. Now, Robert I didn't mind. I'm just whatever about him (okay, so I still kind of like him...but it's not like seeing him makes me act weird). HOWEVER!! Jordan was with him. That was NOT pleasant in the least!! So, instead of going to my room and crying (like I normally would have done), I called up Cameron and got him to get me the heck out of there. Luckily Mama was very understanding and let me go. Kenny went with us. We hung at the mall for like 3 hours. Lots of fun. AND I didn't cry!! XD

Then went to Chris's party. He's a guy from my school. Ate, talked, mostly hung with Paige, Al, Ben, and Joe. Stupid Ben dumped lemonade on my pants.... But overall....it was a lot of fun, I thoroughly enjoyed myself...and it was also a distraction...which I was very grateful for.

On Sunday, I went to my ward for the first two hours and then to College Heights for their sacrament. Lisa's baby was getting blessed. I ended up talking to Ashlynn about...just whatver, y'know? It was a lot of fun. I say that a lot, don't I? Well...it's the best way to describe these things. "a lot of fun"...because it was....

So, last Sunday, my beautiful niece and sister showed up with my handsome nephew! ...oh, and Jeff (lol, jk, love you too!!) Lynne is absolutely adorable!! I love hearing her say my name (which happened like...twice). Actually, I just love hearing her talk. I can't wait until Cady starts doing the same!! Spent a bunch of time with them. It was marvelous!!!

Okay, I gotta get. I'm out!

So, I had an amazing Sunday!! More about it later. For now....

Boy Update

Boy #1 (AKA Jesse)

Okay, so I’m getting a little annoyed with how much Jesse and I are getting teased about being couple. We are NOT a couple!! And all this teasing is messing with my chances with a certain other guy who shall remain nameless.

Jesse’s working at the same place as me now. Makes work more fun. We passed notes on Friday. Random things about juggling eggs and ostriches and chicken and stuff…

Anywho, just wanted to clear the couple thing up.

Boy #2 (AKA Cameron)

He called me a while ago. Apparently his fiancée broke up with him. We’ve been talking a lot. It’s great because he lets me whine to him about all of my guy troubles.

Boy #3 (AKA Jordan)

…not sure I want to talk about him. We had a text fight a few weeks back. I told him how upset (to put it mildly) I was about the break up and how difficult it was for me to see him and that’s why I was avoiding him and wasn’t overly excited about talking to him. He basically told me to get over it and stop acting like “a beezy.” I was SO pissed…

Gonna see him on Tuesday. I’m being civil because I have to. Not exactly thrilled about the idea…but I can do it…just…pray for me because it’ll be rough. Even if it is a completely non-confrontational type meeting. He’s actually helping me out with something…which sucks. *sigh*

Boy #4 (AKA Brandon)

Gonna hang with him soon (I hope). I like having guys that are just friends. They offer a much different perspective than the one I have. (In other words – they accept it as it is….whereas I tend to overanalyze every single thing…typical, huh?)

Boy #5

Super like this guy. He’s got a gf. Super depressing. Oh, well.

There are a few other guys, but this will suffice for now. I’m out!

Work Update

Things I’ve learned at work:

1) Keys work better if you gently insert them as opposed to trying to ram them in the keyhole.
2) Teeth point to the middle…except for the FFA filing cabinets
3) Foster Care Workers: Kariisa, Michelle, Mike, John, Ami, Maria, and Barbara
4) It’s easier to hole punch standing up. You get more leverage or whatever that way.
5) If you try to punch too many papers at one time, the hole puncher jams and it takes a long time to fix it.
6) You should try not to schedule work for the time of day when you’re at your lowest energy level.

Lately, I’ve been auditing the Federal Probation files. I can get through two or three in an hour. I’m able to get through one in about ten minutes. The discrepancy is caused by the fact that staring at files for a long times slows down your brain function. It’s actually really difficult to get through.

I am now getting rides to work as I was approached by a middle-aged/old man who followed me to “work” (I ducked into a building that wasn’t mine). He asked me about where I lived and what school I went to (I lied)…and he stroked my arm while calling me ‘beautiful’. I’m honestly just too scared to walk anymore. Once summer starts, I’ll probably start walking to the bus station again…if I can convince Mama to let me.

That’s my work update. I think I’ll do a church, boys, school, and personal update later. Maybe I’ll do like bullet points or something….make it go faster. Lol, whatever.

I’m out!!