In seminary this morning, we were sitting around talking and stuff. We had reached the Seven Minute Lull in conversation. All of sudden Ashlynn says, "Robyn! There's a spider on your arm!" I freaked. I flailed my arms in an attempt to fling it off. At the same time I pushed my chair away from the table...and possibly screamed. Then no one could see the spider (at this point, I may have squealed). Suddenly, someone pointed it out. It was on the table (may have screamed then too...). Joel got up and ran out of the door. Jesse grabbed a book and slammed it down on the spider, at which point I definitely screamed. It was dead. But I was still mildly freaking out. I was almost hyperventilating and on the verge of tears. I hate spiders.
Also, I checked out a book yesterday (Tuesday). It was by an author who I had really liked...but I hadn't read anything by her since I started reforming my books choices (mainly because I've read all of her books). I noticed that the library had a new book by her, so I decided to read it. Man, it was awful! I kept reading it because I wanted to finish it, but I started getting really depressed. I started thinking about doing stuff I shouldn't (like drinking and drugs and stuff). I thought that it was a continuation of the mood I've been in recently, but I realized that it was more. And...once I switched to a different, more positive book...the feelings disappeared. It's thing like that that help me to become better. It's the moments like that, when I realize that something doesn't make me feel good, that help me set rules and limits. If only it were easier to learn from the positive feelings...but, hey, at least I'm learning.
1 comments:
Definitely WAY best to fill your head with uplifting stories and stories with heroes worth admiring.
And ew about the spider.
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