Christmas!!!

Here's a list of everything I got starting from my very first present (which I got like a week before Christmas...)

Lisa: a shirt that I love and a book light

Bev: colored tape to tape up my broken glasses. Now my glasses are totally stylin'

Cam: a cookbook with recipes from restaurants. And tomorrow he's going to get me a jacket to go with my new dresses (post about that later...)

YW leaders: yummy smelling body wash

Mama: CD by Eclipse. They're a group of 6 guys whose only instruments are their mouths (and throats). It's pretty cool.

Daddy: DESPICABLE ME!!!! With an Inflatable minion whom I have named Larry. I have now watched Despicable Me 4 times. Still love it ("It's so fluffy I'm gonna die!")

And, of course, regular stocking stuff.

Christmas

You know what I love about Christmas? A lot of things. So that's what this post is dedicated to.

First: Christmas songs! "Mary, Did You Know", "Kung Pao Buckaroo Holiday", "O Holy Night", "Hard Candy Christmas", etc. Some are beautiful, some are fun, some are funny. But they're all great. Can't think of one that I don't like.

Second: Shopping!! I am a fairly typical female, so I like to shop. I love spending money. However (like always), I am limited so I am only buying presents for a lucky few. Although, a few others will be able to appreciate the third thing I love about Christmas...

Third: Baking! Cookies and cookies and cookies and bread and cookies! All kinds of cookies...but only one kind of bread. I hope we get a whole lot of flour soon...

Fourth: PRESENTS!!! I love getting things. I'm greedy and materialistic like that. That's why I have my lists of things that I want on the right side of my blog. Go ahead, buy me something. You'll be more likely to get some baked goodies that way. :)

Fifth: Family. Yeah, everything else gets exclamation points. But everything else is more of an excitement thing. Family is more peaceful and relaxing. Family makes you want to relax on the couch and drink hot cocoa and make fun of Rudolph the Red Nose Reindeer.

Well...that's all. Merry Christmas to all. :)

I'M DONE!!!!

With Personal Progress, that is. I finished it last week after having only two projects left for about a year. But now it is complete and I is very happy. So, for your extreme enjoyment, I will post a list of what projects I did (also because I have nothing else to write about and this post is too short to...post...)

Faith: Read the entire Book of Mormon and pray to know that it is true (guess what? It is).

Divine Nature: Help out Sarah with the kiddos and learn about my divine nature as a mother.

Individual Worth: Do my job as the lighting designer for Little Shop of Horrors and realize that I was the one for the job and I did an AMAZING job.

Knowledge: Learn how to make bread and then teach it to someone else.

Choice & Accountability: I helped plan and decorate a youth dance last year. It was pretty amazing. For the youth who went, it was the Luau themed one with the smoothies.

Good Works: I collected recipes into a book and then prepared dinner for the family several times.

Integrity: I took notes on all four sessions of General Conference and compiled my notes into 4 little booklets. (This was my last one)

Virtue: I read the entire Book of Mormon and took notes while I read.

Never thought it would come to this...

So this is going to be difficult to admit to everyone. I never thought that would have to say this, but unfortunately I do...yesterday I learned that...I need more pink in my wardrobe. Ugh, I am almost ashamed to admit it. I need something pink and girly, but still me...which means that I would have to buy it for myself, because I'm so stinking picky. I also realized that I need more...elegant jewelry. Small simple things, y'know? Ones that are accents, not statements.

Now I don't want people getting some strange idea that my tastes are changing. That's simply not it. I have just realized that I am missing some certain necessaries of my wardrobe. Things for different costumes.

Anyway, that's all. Also, I cut my hair.

All woozy and light headed...

...except not really! However, those are possible side effect of donating blood, which I did today. : ) I'm super happy about it.

I went right after school. Cameron drove me. We got there and I showed my ID, gave them all kinds of personal contact info, filled out a health questionnaire, and then sat through a fairly awkward Q&A about my (nonexistent) sex life. Why, no, I have not had sex with a guy who has had sex with another guy (since 1980). Goodness this AIDS things is a hassle! (haha, I love understaements.)

After finishing the Q&A (I passed), the nurse-lady-person took my vitals. And stabbed my finger. I'm looking the other way and then SNAP! I'm bleeding profusely from my finger. I was like "OMFFM!! THAT'S A LOT OF BLOOD!" She scooped up the blood and said something about "87%, that's very good." Compliment?

Then I went into the donation room. Comfy chairs, food, fruit juice, and the biggest needle that I have ever had inside of me. I didn't look when it went it, but I was kind of expecting it to prick like when i get a shot. NO, it was worse. I wasn't like "ooo", I was like "OW!" Then I looked at the needle and saw how freaking HUGE it was.

Sat there flexing the stupid stress ball for a few minutes. Every now and then I would look at my iodine stained arm and think, "why am I doing this?" Then, after I was done bleeding and had rested for five minutes, I got up and went over to the food area and thought, "ah! this is why!" (I don't think with proper capitalization)

After ten minutes of sitting around (and eating and drinking), I went home. I'm still a tad light-headed, but it's not too bad. : )

My Mind is Blown

Got bored, looked at my stats. Then I was like O.O

Not because of the amount of views (because it's not that impressive), but because of the fact that I've had people from other countries view my blog. 1 view each from Romania, Australia, and Denmark. 2 views from Russia. 3 views from Canada. 13 views from Germany! And then a lot from the US.

It was the Germany number that stood out. 13? Is that 13 different people? Or one person 13 times? Or 2-12 people multiple times?

I feel cool....haha.

My Classes

The school year started about...oh, five weeks ago. So, I should probably tell you about my classes now, huh?

First period: AP English with Ernst. Amazing class. Love the teacher. We've read through the Oedipus Cycle and Beowulf already. Had a very interesting discussion about the symbolism of swords and caves on Thursday.

Second Period: CP Physics with Rappleye. Love the teacher. Class is super boring. It's easy. Too easy. We've been going over speed and acceleration for 2 or 3 weeks. I mostly just sleep.

Third Period: CP Econ with Marquez. Myeh. But Marquez doesn't believe in homework, so I guess it's ok. Once again, super boring. I'd sleep, but we have to turn in our notes...

Fourth Period: Drama!!!! Love it! We're doing Shakespeare right now. I'm in a duo with Angelica. We're split up into production teams. Two Drama 4's and about 9 techs. We hire actors per project (except for Shakespeare festival...). My fave class.

Lunch: Ok, so maybe this is my favorite one...

Sixth Period: Student Tutoring for Kunnath. Don't really have anything to do...I just read. Maybe things will pick up later on??

And then I have seventh off and I go home.

That's my schedule. It's super easy and super boring. Not my fave schedule...but it'll do. Maybe I can find a new job?

Two Things...

One, this morning: The Spider Attack!!!

In seminary this morning, we were sitting around talking and stuff. We had reached the Seven Minute Lull in conversation. All of sudden Ashlynn says, "Robyn! There's a spider on your arm!" I freaked. I flailed my arms in an attempt to fling it off. At the same time I pushed my chair away from the table...and possibly screamed. Then no one could see the spider (at this point, I may have squealed). Suddenly, someone pointed it out. It was on the table (may have screamed then too...). Joel got up and ran out of the door. Jesse grabbed a book and slammed it down on the spider, at which point I definitely screamed. It was dead. But I was still mildly freaking out. I was almost hyperventilating and on the verge of tears. I hate spiders.

Also, I checked out a book yesterday (Tuesday). It was by an author who I had really liked...but I hadn't read anything by her since I started reforming my books choices (mainly because I've read all of her books). I noticed that the library had a new book by her, so I decided to read it. Man, it was awful! I kept reading it because I wanted to finish it, but I started getting really depressed. I started thinking about doing stuff I shouldn't (like drinking and drugs and stuff). I thought that it was a continuation of the mood I've been in recently, but I realized that it was more. And...once I switched to a different, more positive book...the feelings disappeared. It's thing like that that help me to become better. It's the moments like that, when I realize that something doesn't make me feel good, that help me set rules and limits. If only it were easier to learn from the positive feelings...but, hey, at least I'm learning.

Dear Daddy,

Thank you for always reminding me about my blog. It wouldn't be this updated if it weren't for you (even if I do only write about once a month now).

And thank you for being my Daddy and spoiling rotten. Thank you for putting up with your job in order to be closer to us. Thank you for loving me as much as you do.

--Robyn


And now for everyone else. I am currently unemployed. My last day was Friday. I no longer have any spending money coming in.

However, the kid phone is now mine to use however I please without having to ask for permission. So I have been texting up a storm. Unfortunately, most of my friends do not have unlimited texting...so I'm kinda limited in who I can text. And NO ONE has AT&T. But whatever.

Been spending a lot of time with Cameron. We just kind of do whatever.

I've also been belly dancing. It is SO much fun. Still in the beginner class and still having a bit of difficulty...but it's getting better.

Registered for Highland on Friday. I signed up for English, Government, Statistics, Drama, and...crap! what was my last class??? Oh, yeah, physics! Anyway, I'm trying to get off for 7th period, but if that doesn't work out, I'll be a library aid. I wanted psychology, but they don't have that anymore...so sad.

Well, that's all for now!!

How do you describe an experience like Girls Camp?

Now, sing the subject to the tune of "Maria" from The Sound of Music.

But seriously, how can someone describe it? We can tell you stories from camp (like the fire in the shovel or the 5 minute laughing attack Jessica had), but there's no way to really describe what Girls Camp really is. It's spiritual...and a little irreverant. It's hard work, but it's fun too. It's schedules and spontaneity. It's everything amazing all rolled into one!! And Big Meadow is one of the most beautiful places on Earth.

Oh, and of course I'm overly emotional and prob will be for the next few days. Camp does that to a person. It's just so hard to leave, especially after Friday night. I got sad when I saw the first sign of civilization. I almost cried when I saw Lake Isabella. I really want to go back and be with all the girls again.

I was in charge of First Years. I was also the leader of my Heart to Heart group. And those girls were so wonderful. Cheyenne was sweet and funny. Kim was quiet. Megan was helpful. Brynna was SUCH a sweetheart (she's the girl who tied the bowline in 8 seconds after I taught her (which made her one of the fastest bowline tiers)). And all the other girls were just....great. We talked about having the courage to talk about the gospel, expressing love to our family, and needing to read the scriptures for the lessons they teach and not just the stories (although you can start out just reading for the story).

Then there was Golden Hour. I think it was my favorite part. It used to be my least favorite, but I love it now. It's the spiritual part of the day. Talking about love and courage and scriptures out in the middle of nowhere with the trees and flowers all around is...amazing.

Then there was Certification. I taught knots. First I taught myself, and then I taught the first years (and Morgan). I can now tie a double half-hitch, a square knot (actually, I could do that before...), and a bowline. The bowline knot was the hardest, but I got it eventually (up, around, and back down).

Then we had Crafts and Self-Defense. Self-Defense was a one day thing. Mostly we talked and then we learned one move. In crafts we did chapsticks and little wood cut-out word thingys and flower pins and headbands and super cute bracelets made out of washers and ribbon. Crafts are fun.

The best part was (the food and) free time. It was so great just sitting around the camp and talking to all the YCLs that I hadn't gotten to know last year. And now I won't be able to see them next year... NOT THINKING ABOUT THAT!!! So, the other girls are great. Rachel was our Pyro and Shiloh has sexy hair. It's reddish-gold and down to her butt and it was all wavy right after she took it out of the braid. VERY pretty.

Friday night was testimony meeting with our wards. It was...pretty amazing... We all said something, even the two nonmembers who were there. Oh, wait...McKenna didn't say anything. Anyway, then Bishop ended with a prayer. An amazing prayer. We were all on our knees in a circle and it felt just like we were a family so I was crying over that. Then we all went out to the meadow. Which is a tradition (along with eating ice cream from the ice cream man...)

Spent Saturday saying goodbye. It was super sad and I cried a lot... Got home and had to scrub myself twice before I felt semi-clean.

KK, love you!

Utah Sucks

So, the Utah trip was NOT that great. Love my family and all....but I just don't enjoy spending time with them. HOWEVER, my nieces are adorable. And so is my nephew (it's still weird to think that they're not all girls now).

Haha, speaking of adorable, Cady will now take things to people. I just gave her a cup and told her to give it to Nana, so she ran to Mama saying, "here Nana here Nana here Nana." SSSSOOOO stinking adorable!

Anyways, the highlight of Utah (besides my nieces and nephew) was seeing EMILY!!!!! Still excited about it. I spent two night there. About 48 hours altogether. I met her boyfriend (he rocks) and we went shopping. Oh, and we talked A LOT. I miss her SO much!! Anywho, shopping was fun...we bought something as a joke...and I think my stepdad found it...wonder what he's thinking about that...haha.

More recently, I had been trying to get the parents to let me go see Cameron. The outcome: I am not talking to them at the moment. I was MAD when I found out. I've been trying to do everything possible to get them to say yes...and they were taking so long to decide that I was hoping...and then they said no. So I am NOT happy.

And you wanna know what's really annoying? Everyone trying to get me to see their side of it. I DO see their side. I'm not happy with it. I don't plan on being happy with it. I want to be mad. So I'm going to be mad. And I plan on being mad for a few days. The only problem with being mad...it upsets Mama...which makes me feel guilty. Now, if she weren't completely sincere about being upset, I'd just ignore her...but because she's totally sincere and crap...I feel guilty. I can't even be mad when I have a reason to. And that makes me even more mad.

Cady is being cute again. She's "hiding" behind the fan and leaning either forward or backwards so that she's just barely peeking out. And then she laughs when I catch her looking.

I want to go....

So...two weeks...well, let's just summarize.

Worked and hung out with Cameron. Oh, and went to the movies with Lisa (TOY STORY 3!!! Loved it so much!!) and to the mall with Jesse and Brandon.

Cameron is officially gone. For two months. He's working at Boy Scouts Camp for the summer. When he comes back, I'll give him his birthday present...I just need to buy it. Can't tell you what it is....just in case he reads this before he gets it.

Went mini-golfing/ice cream/mall wandering/Walmart with him, Kenny, and Deveney on the twelfth. He hung at my house most of this week. Okay...like 2 days. Went to a party at his house on Thursday. Half of the people there left early because they is lame buttheads, so we went to the movies. Me, Cameron, Kenny and Reggie. I like Kenny's sense of humor. He's easy to laugh with.

Oh, and for some reason (prob because of his dad's job...) Cameron owns two pairs of handcuffs. So Kenny wore one pair to the movies. He kept handcuffing himself to random things in the car (like the steering wheel...and me...). It was fun walking into the movies with a handcuffed Mexican (XP). Watched the movie...it was a late showing so we were kind of loud...no one seemed to care. Then I got dropped off at Sarah's.

Helped Sarah out with the babies while she did laundry. Went home, got ready for work, said bye to Cameron :'( and ran to catch the bus. Worked, went to movies with Lisa, came home, went to sleep, work up the next morning feeling AWFUL.

Despite feeling like I could die any second from pure miserableness, I got dressed and went to take the proficiency exam. This involved a lot of walking and a whole lot of thinking. Luckily, the test is fairly easy.....okay, so it was piece of cake. The essay topic sucked though. lol, don't it always?

Came home, went to the mall, went to dance, came home and crashed so hard. Woke up feeling marginally better, but not good enough to go to church. So I'm at home updating my blog instead of going to church. T_T

Where, oh, where has time gone?

So....went to LA on Friday. It all started that morning at work when Sheri asked me if I liked baseball...and then offered me Dodger tickets. So I called up Daddy and we went. I must say...riding on the back of a motorcycle for 2 hours is not comfortable....luckily we got to stop a few times...

Got there, looked at the official merchandise, saw the prices, and then left the gift shop. Then we went into the field area place. Left field pavilion, baby! Pretty close to the actual game, but can't see the Dodger vision screen thingy. Oh well. The game was great. The Braves fans got booed every time they walked around, two fights broke out where we could see them, the guys in the row behind us got kicked out, and the Dodgers won. Go, Dodgers!! Then we went home...well, tried to. Tooke forever to get out of the parking lot. The ride back was even worse than the ride there. Got home at 1-ish and totally crashed.

Woke up Saturday, brushed my hair, and discovered that two of my exes had invaded my house. Now, Robert I didn't mind. I'm just whatever about him (okay, so I still kind of like him...but it's not like seeing him makes me act weird). HOWEVER!! Jordan was with him. That was NOT pleasant in the least!! So, instead of going to my room and crying (like I normally would have done), I called up Cameron and got him to get me the heck out of there. Luckily Mama was very understanding and let me go. Kenny went with us. We hung at the mall for like 3 hours. Lots of fun. AND I didn't cry!! XD

Then went to Chris's party. He's a guy from my school. Ate, talked, mostly hung with Paige, Al, Ben, and Joe. Stupid Ben dumped lemonade on my pants.... But overall....it was a lot of fun, I thoroughly enjoyed myself...and it was also a distraction...which I was very grateful for.

On Sunday, I went to my ward for the first two hours and then to College Heights for their sacrament. Lisa's baby was getting blessed. I ended up talking to Ashlynn about...just whatver, y'know? It was a lot of fun. I say that a lot, don't I? Well...it's the best way to describe these things. "a lot of fun"...because it was....

So, last Sunday, my beautiful niece and sister showed up with my handsome nephew! ...oh, and Jeff (lol, jk, love you too!!) Lynne is absolutely adorable!! I love hearing her say my name (which happened like...twice). Actually, I just love hearing her talk. I can't wait until Cady starts doing the same!! Spent a bunch of time with them. It was marvelous!!!

Okay, I gotta get. I'm out!

So, I had an amazing Sunday!! More about it later. For now....

Boy Update

Boy #1 (AKA Jesse)

Okay, so I’m getting a little annoyed with how much Jesse and I are getting teased about being couple. We are NOT a couple!! And all this teasing is messing with my chances with a certain other guy who shall remain nameless.

Jesse’s working at the same place as me now. Makes work more fun. We passed notes on Friday. Random things about juggling eggs and ostriches and chicken and stuff…

Anywho, just wanted to clear the couple thing up.

Boy #2 (AKA Cameron)

He called me a while ago. Apparently his fiancée broke up with him. We’ve been talking a lot. It’s great because he lets me whine to him about all of my guy troubles.

Boy #3 (AKA Jordan)

…not sure I want to talk about him. We had a text fight a few weeks back. I told him how upset (to put it mildly) I was about the break up and how difficult it was for me to see him and that’s why I was avoiding him and wasn’t overly excited about talking to him. He basically told me to get over it and stop acting like “a beezy.” I was SO pissed…

Gonna see him on Tuesday. I’m being civil because I have to. Not exactly thrilled about the idea…but I can do it…just…pray for me because it’ll be rough. Even if it is a completely non-confrontational type meeting. He’s actually helping me out with something…which sucks. *sigh*

Boy #4 (AKA Brandon)

Gonna hang with him soon (I hope). I like having guys that are just friends. They offer a much different perspective than the one I have. (In other words – they accept it as it is….whereas I tend to overanalyze every single thing…typical, huh?)

Boy #5

Super like this guy. He’s got a gf. Super depressing. Oh, well.

There are a few other guys, but this will suffice for now. I’m out!

Work Update

Things I’ve learned at work:

1) Keys work better if you gently insert them as opposed to trying to ram them in the keyhole.
2) Teeth point to the middle…except for the FFA filing cabinets
3) Foster Care Workers: Kariisa, Michelle, Mike, John, Ami, Maria, and Barbara
4) It’s easier to hole punch standing up. You get more leverage or whatever that way.
5) If you try to punch too many papers at one time, the hole puncher jams and it takes a long time to fix it.
6) You should try not to schedule work for the time of day when you’re at your lowest energy level.

Lately, I’ve been auditing the Federal Probation files. I can get through two or three in an hour. I’m able to get through one in about ten minutes. The discrepancy is caused by the fact that staring at files for a long times slows down your brain function. It’s actually really difficult to get through.

I am now getting rides to work as I was approached by a middle-aged/old man who followed me to “work” (I ducked into a building that wasn’t mine). He asked me about where I lived and what school I went to (I lied)…and he stroked my arm while calling me ‘beautiful’. I’m honestly just too scared to walk anymore. Once summer starts, I’ll probably start walking to the bus station again…if I can convince Mama to let me.

That’s my work update. I think I’ll do a church, boys, school, and personal update later. Maybe I’ll do like bullet points or something….make it go faster. Lol, whatever.

I’m out!!

SORRY!!!!!!

Okay, so it's been like am month...and a week. And I'm not doing a HUGE catch up like I should...I'm just going to copy and paste my email to Seth about all the stuff that has happened this week. I promise to get a full (sort of) update SOON!!!

Well, this week was the Scripture Chase for the stake. My team did pretty bad. Well....we tended to be about half a second behind the winning team...so it wasn't that bad....

Didn't win anything, but we got to play bloody knuckles, so I was cool with it.

Yesterday, Daddy and I went to a big barbecue competition. With ribs. There was a brown sugar/molasses based sauce (and their meat just like melted in your mouth...). There was a honey based sauce (and their cut was GREAT). And there was a pineapple/honey based sauce (cooked really well). Those are just the ones worth mentioning. Well...actually...there was another brown sugar based sauce that was really good....but the meat itself wasn't as great. It was SOOOOO good! And there was a pretty good band...at the end...the first two were....myeh. Okay, in order: Punk Rock, Bite Me, and Tropical Heat. I am going to have one of those three cater my wedding (in order of the sauces I talked about).

I also had a date with Cameron last night. Me, him, Julian, and Julian's date went to Rosemary's. I got the Reuben. It was alright...but there wasn't enough meat and there wasn't any Thousand Island. And it wasn't toasted enough. But it was still a reuben. Then the four of us ordered dessert. Me and Cam got the hot fudge brownie (two HUGE scoops of ice cream on top of two brownies and covered in hot fudge). Julian and his date got the blondie (same things but with toasted almond ice cream, two blondies, and caramel).

Then we went to the mall (not the one on our side, but the other one). Did you know that it closes at 8? So instead we went to Michaels. Then we went to Cameron's front yard to play with the flame thrower that he and Kenny had made. But the lighter fluid had like...corroded the plastic...so it didn't work....which was really disappointing.... Then I got home at around 10:30.

It was SO much fun!! We all talked a lot and ran around the parking lot and *edited*

Well, more sometime next week!! Forgive me for the laziness but I haven't eaten lunch yet....

This week made me want to....

...kill myself. 'Nuff said (which means...no details para tu!).

We had state testing this week. Easy as taking candy from a quadriplegic. Which means that it was also very boring.

I recalculated my money for this pay period (thanks to the wonderful link Sarrae gave me). I will actually have $67.50 to spend...and I already know where half of it is going! I like planning ahead.

Also, I am starting a list of things I want for my office (in case you happen to have it lying around the house and you want to give it to me). I'll post the list later.

Work, in general, is still rather boring. Paperwork gets pretty repetitive after a while. Especially when it's the same form over and over and over again. I've been auditing the Foster Family charts. When those are done, we'll start working on the Foster Children's charts.

I'll give you a quick intro to everyone at work (whose names I remember...). Sheri (?) is my supervisor. I work in her office, and she tells me what to do and offers advice. There is Martin, the CEO/guy who hired me/my seminary teacher. Shannon is the DV counselor. I pull her files and check them in. Geoffrey works mostly with Federal Probation (as far as I can tell). There are about...5 or so social workers for the FFA (Foster Family Agency). And there is Michelle who is in charge of intake and the front desk. No fun stories to tell about any of them.

My real reason for blogging today was to write about Trevor's baptism. Trevor is Alyssa's boyfriend. She made it clear that she would only marry a member. He took the lessons, gained a testimony, and got baptized. I'm really happy for the both of them. Alyssa's been my seminary whisper buddy ever since Emily left :'(.

I had to leave the service multiple times to go take a breather. It was a lot rougher than I though it would be. Especially when Trevor bore his testimony. Why was it so hard? Well...I had this boyfriend...

I made it clear to this boyfriend that I would only marry a member. He dumped me. Alyssa got what I wanted. Alyssa got what I had been praying and hoping for. I am so jealous that it's hard just to look at her.

But, don't get me wrong, I am really happy for Alyssa. It was great seeing her smile so much tonight. I hope that the two of them work out.

Okay, I'm out.

Single Again!!

Well...Robert broke up with me this morning for his ex. Which...I'm not upset about. There are a few things that I am upset about in regards to Robert, but the break up is not one of them.

Quite honestly...I'm almost relieved. Actually...I am relieved. I'm really disappointed too because I really really like him but...I discovered that I actually prefer being single. The whole casual dating thing is a whole lot better than the whole exclusive relationship thing. Less stressful.

When I made the decision not to do the whole bf/gf thing, in my mind I was thinking "unless one of three specific guys ask me..." Robert happened to be one of them, which is why I said yes. Robert is the first active Mormon guy that I've dated... weird...

Work was lame. I hate it already. Paperwork sucks, especially when I'm not sure if I'm doing it right and it turns out that I'm now... BUT!!! I will get paid and it will all be worth it! Only 3 more days until the pay period is over and only 2 weeks until my first paycheck!! I will survive!! I will also only be getting paid about...$166.50 (not counting taxes). But my next paycheck should be more like...$414 (not counting taxes). That's what I get for starting halfway into the pay period and losing 4 and a half hours of work. Grr! Stupid state testing!!!

Anywho, that's all. I'm out.

BOYFRIEND!!!!!

Robert is my boyfriend. There! I said it! I’m so excited about it, too!! I wasn’t really planning on the whole boyfriend thing for a while...but...Robert asked…and well…I really like him, so I said yes. He’s like…one of two guys that I would have said ‘yes’ to.

First day at work today! It was great. Took about an hour to fill out some paperwork. Then I worked from 1 to 5. How do those people do it for any longer than that?? I was so bored after about…2 hours. Crazy people.

Anyway, My job is to just look over paperwork. I also do a lot of filing…and I have to lock and unlock the file room (and filing boxes) for everyone else in the office. There are like…12 different keys for me to use! But overall…it was fun. I get paid $9 an hours. Next payday is the 26th. Most def looking forward to it!

On the way home, I saw my first real-life tranny! From behind, I though it was a chick. Then I saw the chest hair and lack of breasts. Okay…so it was more like a cross-dresser, but maybe he/she is on his/her way to becoming a her for good.

Then, when I was walking, this Mexican guy in a truck did the eyebrow thing at me. Y’know, like, “hey, what up, cutie?” I was like “ew…creeper.”

Well, that’s been my day. (Actually, the Robert thing was on Tuesday). The most exciting thing is, of course, Robert asking me out. I still start blushing when I think about it (I mean, seriously, how dorky is that? Blech!) .

Anywho, I’m out!

Maybe?

Hasn't been very long since my last post, but I have quite a bit to write about.

First off, I saw Jordan on Monday (not the reason that I was upset). For some strange reason he kept hugging me. He hugged me like 5 times. Maybe more. I was like "WTFM? Whatever." It was just odd....

Also on Monday, I had a bit of a meltdown. Everything just sort of caught up to me at once. Then I went to Panda Express and got....sweetfire chicken breast, orange chicken, and beijing beef. Then I got fried rice and a large chow mein. So basically I got a 3-entree and a large side. And it was good!!! I didn't eat it all last night, only the orange chicken and chow mein. Panda Express is my comfort food.

Today was....well...something happened that I'm not sure I should write about as I am not sure how it will work out. So until then.....I'll just keep you in suspense. If it turns out the way I'm hoping it will, you will hear about it....a lot. Otherwise, I'll never mention it again. Who knows.

Well, Megan want me, so I'm out!

Mormal

Finally! I have some pictures (although not the ones I wanted...)

Mormal began with a dinner at my house. I made spaghetti and meatballs. There was originally supposed to be french bread but....umm...well...it got burnt. So Daddy grabbed some white bread and made individual little slices. Steve made a BEAUTIFUL!!! salad. We ate on the china. Oooer, right?

We all managed to eat without spilling anything on ourselves. Then it was time to go! Except we had to stand around waiting for the parents to get all their pictures. >.<
I wasn't sure what do do with my hair. I put on a headband, but I took it out before we left.

Then we got in the Neville's van for the trip there. Sis. Neville had chocolate that all of just devoured...and then used the wrappers to attack each other. Bev hit me for throwing wrappers at her boyfriend....oh, well! I had fun!

We got to the building at it was amazing! I was on the committee but I had no idea that it would look that good!! It had been decorated like an old hotel in New York. There was a thinger out front....like a umm...the thing that covers the entrance so people don't get wet and it has the name of the hotel and stuff? Anyway, inside they had a "front desk" and a pianist playing I don't remember what. They had a doorman for the entrance to the building and to the dance area.

The dance area was....just...freaking amazing!! They had it set up like a "room within a room." I'm not very good at descriptions, so you're on our own. There was white fabric draping from the a frame that had been set up inside the gym and there were pictures being shined onto the them. Oh! And they had a camera that sent a live feed of the dance floor up to the big screen behind the DJ (who rocked!!).

There were two fondue fountains (not the greatest fondue) and a spritzer bar (Sprite with passion fruit, strawberry, watermelon, or root beer flavoring). Pineapple dipped in chocolate is really really good....even better than pretzels.

I slow danced with uhh....2 guys? Brandon and Jesse. Yeah, two. Lisa, however, danced with Jesse, Brandon, Chad, Daniel, and this one guy named Edgar (who she wasn't entirely sure of...). I was so proud of her!! My Lisa draws guys to her like honey draws flies (perfect comparison cause Lisa is sweet like honey and guys are as annoying as flies)!

OH! The most important thing of the night!! My corsage! It was absolutely gorgeous! There were two striped carnations that were just....perfect!! And the bow was made of a ribbon that was the same exact color (well...almost) as the material for my collar!! I loved it so much!

We all danced the night away! It was the best dance that I've ever been to (and it totally beat the pants off of Highland's formal!!).
Well, that was Mormal. Sorry it took so long!! I have some other pictures that I may or may not be adding. The end! (I'm out)

Depressed

I don't know what it is right now but I'm feeling kind of depressed. I'm not happy. I have no energy. I just want to curl up and bed and go back to sleep.

I really want Panda Express right now. I got some money as a late b-day present today and that's what I'm going to use it for. Mostly because of who gave it to me.

I got some Mormal pictures, so when I get home I'll make the post (3 weeks later!).

Maybe Mama will be willing to drive me to Panda for dinner. Hopefully.

I'm dreading the thought of going to school tomorrow. Too much thinking and stuff involved. And I'll have to socialize and talk (...same thing...) and....oh, I don't know. I'd rather stay home on bed or go to work with Mama or help Sarah out with the babies.

I think I've used up all of my energy. I'm gonna go veg out on the couch. Yeah....I'm done....

Making History

Went to the movies with Lisa yesterday. Robert was supposed to go with us, but that didn't work out. It also means that he probably won't be making it to my b-day dinner tomorrow. I'm really really really disappointed.

We saw Alvin and the Chipmunks: The Squeakquel. It was awesome!! Then we went to Barnes & Nobles. Lisa bought me the third volume of Gentleman's Alliance. That's in addition to her earlier present of The True Confessions of Charlotte Doyle. Then we had linner at Subway. I got the sweet onion teriyaki and it was gooood!!! Then we wandered around two shoe stores. Didn't really find anything at the first one, but the second was amazing!! I saw like....10 pairs of shoes that I really wanted. And they were all on sale. Didn't get any though..... That's about the time we went home. It was a heck of a lot of fun. Oh, and before all that, we were hanging at my house. That was the funnest part.

Another great part? While we were at B&N, we was the Bark-man!! He's still wearing those awful yellow pants and Hawaiian shirts, but he looks like he's lost some weight. Retirement looks good on him!

GenCon today. Should be fun. I was only half there for the morning session, but I should be more awake for the afternoon session.

I bet tomorrow will be even better! Especially since we're going to be having such a yummy dinner!! Too bad Robert won't be there....

Anyway, that's all. I'm out.

3 Guys in 3 Days

I went with Mama to Aunt Margaret's funeral. The car ride was fun, and the food was good. Other than that....not so much fun. It wasn't exactly the best birthday I've ever had. I got about 5 or 6 birthday calls. But the really fun part of the trip was Guy #1: Dale.

To be more respectful, I suppose I should call him Uncle Dale. Mama's brother is really funny!! We hung out, looked at old pictures, and listened to Dale talk. It was a lot of fun. According to Mama, he's picky about who he likes. He very obviously doesn't like several members of the family. But he likes me. He told me to keep in touch, so I need to write him a letter soon. (Out of the 3 guys, I think that he's my favorite!)

On Tuesday (Uncle Dale was on Monday), Brandon took me on a picnic and then we wandered around Rite Aid, Walgreens, and the mall. We talked about hair dye and school and other random stuff. It's always fun to be able to hang out with a guy and not worry about whether or not he's considering it a date. It's fun to just....hang out, y'know?

Tuesday's also the same day that Mama bought us gym memberships. I've already been there twice! I really like it and I'm having a lot of fun.

Robert spent the entire day at our house on Wednesday. He helped in the yard, helped with dinner, and helped with dishes. We watched Latter Day Night and Pride & Prejudice. Robert and I ended up talking a lot because Chad played video games and then went to Sarrae's. We talked about what girls were hot. We talked about hockey. We talked about what guys were hot. It was fun. We spent all of Pride & Prejudice talking about how cute Keira Knightley is.
"I wish I looked as good blowing out a candle as Keira Knightley does."
"Yeah, me too"
lolerz

Nothing much today. But tomorrow....I'ma hang with Lisa. Yay!!

Oh, and I just read something that totally shocked me but is making me smile like crazy.

Okay, now I'm out!

Stuffed!

Yesterday was school and not much else. I don't really remember much except for a lot of sleeping. Which means that I didn't sleep a lot last night.

Today was Robyn's Birthday Eve. I is very excited about tomorrow!! Well, not really...but that's coming later.

I got to seminary this morning and saw a Happy Birthday balloon and a vase of flowers. They were for me from Jesse. Then we had a scripture chase and the Juniors won!! 125 to 11 (Seniors) to 5 (Sophmores). They's got it handed to them!! Go Juniors!! Go Juniors!!

Then I went to school, which was blah. Then I went to the Neville's house and hung out with Tasha and Chaz. DJ was building Rome and catapults. It was fun knocking her buildings down. XD

At 5, Bro. and Sis. Neville went to dinner with me and Jesse. IT WAS GOOD!!! We started with a sample plate. Mozzarella sticks, chicken strips, onion rings, and fried zuccini. The marinara sauce left a bit to be desired, but the ranch was GREAT. Then I ordered a hot cocoa (my main reason for choosing Carrows) and a Uptown Pot Roast Melt. The melt wasn't quite what I was expecting and the fries didn't have any salt. But it was really good!! They brought Sis. Neville the Cheesy Garlic Bread instead of the cornbread that she ordered, so they brought out some cornbread and let us keep the garlic bread. And that cheesy garlic bread was SO good. It was crispy and flarvorful and really yummy!!! Everyone (excpet me) was totally stuffed when the waitress came around to ask if we wanted desert. I got the Inside Out Molten Chocolate Cake (or something like that). It was almost like a brownie and had that fudgy topping that most people would associate with brownies (you know what I mean?). They served it with a scoop of ice cream and just about drowned it in a strawberry sauce thing. But....it worked really well. They served us really fast too! I got my cake about 2 minutes after I ordered it, and it was nice and hot. I was really impressed with all of it. (....well....that sounded vaguely like a really badly done restaurant review)

Mama asked if I wanted to go up north with her to her sister's funeral. I said yes. So I cancelled my plans for tomorrow and I'll be spending my birthday driving. I need to bring a lot of homework. But I'll get to see a lot of my extended family. I'm kind of disappointed that I won't get to play my new Sims game until Tuesday or Wednesday.

BUT I'm going to go install it right now, so I'm out!

Sorry About....

....taking so long for a Mormal post. I promise that once I get pictures, I will write the post!

I'm trying to remember everything I've done since Friday...

We'll skip Saturday and go straight to Sunday night. Sunday night was a Fireside. It was TriStake so I got to hang out with Brandon and Jesse the entire time. I managed to bring up the whole "Is it a date?" thing without him noticing and I feel very relieved! We're on the same page. It's not a date. Jesse isn't dating until after his mission. Go him!! Also made plans with Brandon to go to Olive Garden on Tuesday as a b-day present. I am VERY excited.

On Monday, I worked really hard to finish up all of my homework seeing as it was due the next day. I actually had very little left to do. I'm proud of myself. We went to the Dehaven's house for dinner. Shelly gave me the Sims 3. I am SO excited about playing it on Friday!!

On Monday, in the morning, I went with Sarah and James to the park. Cady was cute! And she screamed at me when I tried to take her out of the swing. Then I walked along the water with her and kept her from going swimming. The cutest part happened when Sarah and James were driving me home. I had been talking to Megan, but then I got distracted by my thoughts, so I ended up just sort of staring into space in her general direction. That's about when Cady reached her hand over to tap Megan on the arm and say, "Hi," with a big smile on her face. Megan just grinned like nothing could ever beat her sister talking to her. They just sort of smiled at each other for like two or three seconds before Cady got distracted by something else.

Tuesday was school and lunch time was wonderful. Not because it was lunch time, but because there was this cute Australian guy who talked for a while. I sat and stared and smiled. It was kind of strange....I went over to talk to him (so that I could hear him talk with that super sexy accent) and I somehow ended up with a brochure that was really heavy....and I didn't even really want it....and I don't remember taking it... Why is it that an accent can make a guy go from "eh" to "OMFG!! HAWT!!!"?

Today was Morgan's birthday. I baked her a cake last night and gave it to her at seminary this morning. I also got like ten people to come with me and sing "Happy Birthday" to her. I was worried about how the cake would taste, but apparently it was pretty good. Which made me happy.

Went with Sarah to Barns & Nobles today. I walked around with Megan (well, I actually carried her over to the manga section and read while holding her (which was difficult because she wouldn't let me sit down)) while Cady and Sarrae were at the reading time. Then we went to Chick-Fil-a for lunch. Cady had some fun in the play area.

I know there was something I wanted to blog about but once again...I can't remember what it was...

I have a ten-page research paper to write on Mark Twain. And I have to read Innocents Abroad. This is in addition to all my regular class work. I need to check out books on him, and fill out note cards, and write three different outlines and rough drafts, and write a lot....like a lot a lot.... I'm not looking forward to it very much. I need to buy note cards (three different colors (I want 4)) and pay off my library debt....and buy a library card....*sigh*

I finished the Book of Mormon this morning!! It's my fifth time (I think).

Well, I have homework to do! I want to get as far ahead as possible so that I have more time for my paper. But real quick, birthday plans:
3/26 - dinner with Jesse and his parents at Carrow's
(possibly: celebrations in seminary and in Chemistry)
3/27 - MY BIRTHDAY!!!! I'm gonna spend all day with Lisa. I need to figure out when though...
3/30 - Hang with Brandon. Olive Garden and (maybe) a movie
4/3 or 4 - Family birthday dinner. Pancit and Lumpia! Cha!

Oh, and random Tagalog words:
mas nakakabatang kapatid na babae - Little Sister
Kuya - Older Brother (....bit of a difference)
Pomangkin - Niece/Nephew
Pomangkin na babae - Niece

Jobs, Jordan, and Jukeboxes

So the interview went well. There might be a small issue finding 20 hours for me to work each week. BUT if I do 1-5 on Monday, Wednesday, and Thursday, 3-5 on Tuesday, and 8-10; 1-5 on Friday, I can get the 20. My Chemistry teacher is also considering letting me out of some of the Friday classes. Then I can work 8-5 on Fridays. Which will give me 23 hours.

I really want this job! I'm always hearing about what the finances are like here, and I want to help out! Mama will probably be a pain-in-the-butt about it, but I don't care. I'll pay for gas. She can't argue with that since I'll be making them use a lot of it. I mean, I wouldn't be paying for all of it, but any that I use. Which I calculated that if they drive me to and from work every day, it'll be about $10 or $12 a week. So $40 to $50 dollars a month. Which (at minimum wage) is about 6 or 7 hours of work. Which is a Friday's worth of work. I've been thinking about this a lot. Obviously.

Today is Jordan's birthday, so I called to say "Happy birthday!" and whatnot. I really wish that I hadn't. He said some things that brought back memories of when we used to talk everyday and it made me miss him so much. I almost started crying after we hung up (the call was like 1 minute long). Then I almost started crying when I mentioned the call to Lisa. And I'm almost crying while I write this. It definitely wasn't a good idea to call. Now I want to go somewhere to forget about him, but we don't have any gas so....I'm stuck here.

Just looked through the pictures of Lynne. And she is ADORABLE!!!!

I dressed like a pirate today. No bandanna, no pirate jacket, no eye-patch, no hat. But I looked rather piratey anyways. I thought it was wonderful.

Okay, I'm done for now. I'm out!

Everything Except Mormal

There were so many things I wanted to blog about last week, but I never got the chance to. So I forgot a lot of them. I'll try and remember them now.

First, we're going back to my Daddy Date Day. I forgot to mention something very important: the cute guy in the gardening section at Walmart. He kinda smiled a shy "hey, what's up. you're kinda cute" smile. So I kinda smiled a "hey, what's up. you're kind cute, too" smile back. Of course, I may have been totally mistranslating that smile, but.....I have hope. Because he was really really cute.

Now on to Monday! Let's see...went to Sarah's. Went to Cady's photo shoot. Megan was happy the entire time, but Cadence was NOT. Don't really remember much else from that day except that I'm forgetting something.

Tuesday was school. I realized that the group I hang out with during Study Hall isn't who I want to be hanging out with, but I don't know anyone else. What am I supposed to do? Eh, I'll figure it out. That night there was a concert at my old middle school. My old high school and my old middle school were playing a concert together. GO ORCHESTRA!!!! And the band was good too. I guess.

Wednesday was mutual. I don't remember what it was. Oh, that's because I didn't go, haha. It was the skating party. I went over to Tasha's house instead. We hung out and celebrated Chaz's birthday. He's so CUTE!!! He got me to play Chutes & Ladders with him on the computer. I just couldn't win!! I kept getting the same chute over and over and over again. I was like "Grrr!" For dinner, they had mac & cheese and hotdogs. I had already eaten at my house, and guess what we had had? Mac & cheese and hotdogs! Very amusing. Watching Chaz open his presents was great. He got a Pez dispenser and nothing else interested him for the rest of the night except for his candy.

My Spanish teacher canceled class on Thursday. So I skipped seminary and slept it. Spent all day at home. Don't really remember doing much. By this time, my dress was pretty much done. Except for the collar. Mama works so well!! Then I went to the show. Pretty routine. Ran box office, sat backstage and talked to Nikki. Flirted with Mauricio. All that fun stuff.

Friday was.....frustrating. Went to school, it was whatever. Then I got home, did homework, ate dinner. That was fine. About 5:30 I look for someone to give me a ride to school. No car. I'm fine. Mama had it, so I called her. No answer. I leave a message. About 5:45 I call again. No answer. I call a few other people. No luck. I send an email to Daddy. No luck. So I sat in the living room calling Mama and getting her voicemail, and then calling Daddy and getting the busy tone. Just call, hang up, call, hang up, call, hang up with no rest. About 6:25 Mama calls back "I'm on my way." By this time I'd already been called twice by someone from school. I had broken down in tears because I was so frustrated. And when Mama picks me up, does she go the fast way and take the freeway? No! She takes the slow way with all the lights! I was SO frustrated with her! Nikki had to calm me down because I was about to break down crying again. I ended up sitting in the audience that show. Not an experience I want to repeat. I prefer the backstage life. Although, I did get to stare at the back of a certain someone's head because he had come to see Cody perform. It was almost worth it.

Saturday was so hectic!! I showered, bought last minute things, picked up the boutonniere, made dinner, got dressed, couldn't figure out how to do my hair, did my make up, went to Mormal, and sometime during that went to Tevin's party. Tevin's party was great! I got there about an hour late and only stayed for an hour. It was within walking distance, luckily. When I came, there was a bean bag fight going on. The California version of a snowball fight, haha. Then we sat around eating pizza and talking for a while. The next part was the most fun: Twister!! We had a mini-tournament. I lost because someone fell on me. I think it was Autumn. Of course, me being me, I didn't go for the easy circles, I grabbed random ones that made my position much more difficult. I mean, that's what makes it fun. Although I was kind of upset that I lost so early on. But I got to play another round and I was one of the last two in. So it was all good. After that, we were about to go in and play Pin the Afro on Tevin, but instead we did a soul train line. It was okay, not the best soul train line, but we had fun. That's when I had to go. And it's a good thing I did because I (with the help of Steve and Daddy) barely finished dinner in time!

Now about the dinner....you'll have to wait until my Mormal post for that! Hahahahaha!! And you have to wait until I get Mormal pictures for my Mormal post!!

BYD on Sunday was great. We talked abut dating and what exactly a date is. I believe the definition that we came up with was: two people of opposite genders getting together because they are romantically interested in the other person and want to get to know them better. Of course, at this stage in life it is required that these dates be double or group dates. So....if it's only one guy and one girl going to get something to eat just for the sake of getting something to eat (and because it's her birthday and that's her present), that not a date.

On Monday, I went to Sarrae's (Sarah + Rae = Sarrae). Hung out...wasn't very helpful...I really do need to find something that I can do for her besides just kinda babysit. Got home, did some homework, went to bed.

Tuesday was school. I had a rough draft due that I knew we would grade in class if I didn't finish it, but if I did finish it, we would grade it at home. Which is what happened. I finished the essay and we didn't have time for it in class. I've got some History stuff and some Chemistry stuff that's kind of late. I'm turning it in on...tomorrow. Nothing big, so I'm not worried. I was looking through the classifieds and I saw that a cafe near my school was hiring. I thought, "hmm, I should check it out." So I had Steve pick me up and drive me over there. We drove past and there were about ten ladies in their 20s and 30s sitting outside. I was like O.O! and we left. I was a little disappointed. At 5-ish, Daddy took me to the 99¢ Store. I got three picture frames (one for each of my Mormal 5x7s and one for Chad's), two ties (one for me and one for Seth), a thing of bobby pins, and a thing of hair ties.

Today has barely started. But I look really cute today. I'm wearing black pants, black tennies, a black tank, a black button-up (only bottom two buttons buttoned), black eyeliner (not super thick, but done like eyeliner should be done: thin), and a pink plaid tie. It has a vaguely school girl feel to it. I love this outfit. It is my new favorite. Oh, and my hair looks good. I blow-dried it straight yesterday and after sleeping on it last night, it has a kind of a tamed bed-head look. I also tried on one of those fabric hairband thingys that I bought for Mormal. I used the pink one and it looked great!! But it kept slipping off, so I'm only putting it on when I go out in public. My original idea was to go all black with just a splash of color. And it works.

Oh, and I also wrapped my green hairband around my wrist for St. Patty's day. Happy birthday Bro. Hansen and Mathew I.!!!

Last thing: I asked Bro. Hansen if he was hiring, and he said yes. I asked if he hired under 18 (age) and he said maybe. So tomorrow I'm going to take my resume and go see him at work. Wish me luck!!

Cougar

My last post was on Tuesday. So we'll start with Wednesday!

Actually....we'll start with something else. My camera. My poor, abused digital camera. My poor, abused, currently broken digital camera. I don't remember exactly when it happened....Yes, I do. It was on Friday...last Friday (in February, not March). I let Cady play with my camera and whatnot. She's banged it and dropped it before, and nothing bad has happened. This time, however, we were in the bathroom. I had just told Sarah that "Cady can't do anything to it unless she drops it in the toilet or something." And guess what she did. Ha! You're wrong! She didn't drop it in the toilet! She dropped it lens down on the floor and jammed the lens. Daddy's gonna try to fix it. But until then....no new pictures.

Okay, so Wednesday. Wednesday had some good and some bad. First, I got to see Nicole!! I was SO happy! I hadn't seen her since....December or so. She's one of my besties and I alt+3 her! It was really great. And then I got to see her on Thursday and Friday too! Happy me!

But the bad part....on Wednesday one of my friends told me that she wasn't allowed to talk to me anymore. Apparently I'm a bad influence or something. Now, a month ago I would have just laughed it off and been like "Haha, I'm a bad influence! Go me!" or something. But now... it really bothers me. I think what bothers me the most is that this came right after I decided to make all these changes in my life. I'm finally really changing....and then that happened....it was pretty depressing.

So, Thursday. Let's see here....School....then home....then I went shopping with Bev for her Mormal outfit. She got a black skirt and a really pretty blue-green top. It looked great on her! Only problem was....her icky boyfriend came with us and she spent most of the time hanging on him and talking to him and kissing him and whatnot. Which was really annoying. And so that night, I apologized to all of my Drama buddies about how I had acted with Jordan around them. I hadn't realized just how annoying it was.... With my next boyfriend (which won't be for a while), it's definitely minimal PDA. Holding hands, hugs, quick kisses and that's it! And only very occasionally.

Thursday night was my old school's opening night for the play the Drama Club is doing. I honestly wasn't expecting it to be that great because I had just seen them rehearsing it on Monday. And on Monday...it wasn't the greatest. But....OH MY FLYING FLIPPER SAUSAGE MONKEY!!! It was AMAZING!!! Everyone who knows me should know what school I'm referring to. So, if you can go, you totally should. It was great! $5 admission, show starts at 7 pm.

And also on Thursday, I got to talk to Nicole a whole bunch. Same thing on Friday. We both sat backstage during the show and talked a lot. We watched the play too and made a lot of comments on it. But we mostly talked about Nicole and me.

On Friday, I went to school. Took the EAP essay for English. I had to write about some guy's quote and whether or not I agreed with it and why. It sucked. I hate essays like that. I hope I did well. Then I went out and waited for the bus. And it took 40 or 50 minutes for the bus to get there. And traffic was bad, so it took forever to get to the transit center. Then I had to wait 15 minutes for my next bus. And traffic was bad. And we stopped at every single hot mustard jelly bean stop. And it was really really really annoying. I wanted to shoot someone.

Then I got to go to the movies with Lisa!! We went to see Alice in Wonderland. I liked it, Lisa was disappointed. Then I went to the second night of my old school's play.

Only two more nights left!! Next Thursday and Friday. And then that's it!! It's very sad.

Saturday was mine and Daddy's date day. He picked me up at 11 and we went shopping. Our menu for the night was ribs, potato salad, corn on the cob, and funnel cake! The ribs were SO good! The meat fell right off of the bone and the we had good barbecue sauce and we had two racks of it and there's half a rack still sitting in my fridge and I can't eat it cause I'm fasting and it's driving me crazy!!! The funnel cake was a bit of a trial and error thing. I'm pretty sure we figured out how to do it right. Thicker batter and hotter oil. We watched some basketball at the church and then two movies at Daddy's house. And we took Brin for a walk!! She was so funny! I'm kind of upset that the ducks were so skittish, but what can you do?

At Daddy's house we've made....french onion soup, Philly Cheesesteak sandwiches, chicken cordon bleu, and ribs. Good stuff....like...seriously good stuff. And thinking about it isn't helping my fast. GRR!!!

Okay, so I kind of like the guy playing Willard. I mean, I'm not going to try to get at that or anything. I just enjoy being around him and talking to him. And he gives really good hugs. He's also two years younger than me. Now, I don't normally like younger guys. Well, noticeably younger guys (i.e. - different grade). But the guys in the Drama Club....idk, I keep liking the younger guys from the club. *sigh* Whatever. Nicole calls me a cougar and I'm just like "whatever."

Okay, I'm out!

The Weekend

Well now...where to start. Well, how about where I left off. That would bring me to....Friday.

Okay, Friday was the day that I picked out my glasses! I went in for an appointment at wondermous Costco. Apparently my eyes are a little bit worse than a year and a half ago. Or maybe just one of my eyes is. Anywho! I picked out frames all by myself (so if they look bad on me, I blame Sarah and Erin for not being there) and I LOVE them. I'm just worried that they might be too wide. They are thick-rimmed black rectangular glasses. Well, maybe you should remove the "-ular" from that description. These glasses don't have those rounded edges that most frames have; these are rectangles. And they're really narrow. I mean, from what I remember, the frames don't narrow at all from the eye part to the ear part thing (like ==== instead of -==-, y'know?). I'm sorry that I can't describe it right. I was trying to find a picture online, but it's not working. I don't even know what brand/designer/whatever they are. Maybe if I could find the receipt....oh, well, it's somewhere. Eventually I'll get get a pic of them on.

Saturday had two events. First was Tech Day for my old Drama Club. I was there because Tevy-baby needed help with lights and I am the resident expert. And also because it was something to do. It was fun, but I had to leave before the actors' run through because I had to get ready for the hockey game.

(random change to Valley Girl style!! read it really, really fast. Like speed-talking) So, a few days before the game, Lisa calls me up and says "I've got tickets for the game this weekend, do you want to go?" I'm like, "Hecks of yes!! I love hockey!" So she's like, "Okay, call Maria and see if she wants to go, too." So I call Maria and I'm all like, "Wanna go to the game?" And she's like "No, Jesse says he's coming into town this weekend." I'm kind of like "grrr!" but all I say is "fine." Then I call Lisa back and tell her that Maria said no and Lisa's all like "grrr!" and then she was all like "Well, who else can go?" And so we start naming names and calling a few people but no one can go, right? So she's all like "well, what about that guy you're taking to Mormal?" and so I'm like "Jesse? Yeah, I guess I can ask him." So I call and his sister picks up and I'm all like "Is Jesse home?" and she's all like "no" and so I'm like "well is he doing anything this Saturday?" and she's all like "I dunno, lemme ask." So she asks her mom and then she's all like "No, he's not doing anything" and so I was like "Well can you tell him that I've got tickets for the hockey game this Saturday and see if he wants to go?" and she was like "yeah, sure." So he called later and was all like "Yeah, I'll go," which I knew he would say. Heck I'd even already told Lisa that he was going. So anyway, then we went.

(back to normal) So we got there and met up with Lisa. Then we went in without her because she had to sit with the band (which is where me and Jesse moved to after they got there). Our home team won! By two points, and there was a pretty good fight, too. But, rewinding a bit, we (Lisa, Jesse, and me (oh, and Chad too, I guess)) hung out. Lisa sent me to buy a pretzel for her and told me to get something for myself. I got ice cream. And it was SOOOOOOO gooooood. I shared with....ummm....everyone? Haha, nah. I shared with Lisa, Jesse, and Kiersten. They all agreed that it was really good ice cream. And then, after the second period, they were launching shirts from those shirt launcher things (♫ real men of genius! ♫), and one flew straight into my lap! I mean, I didn't even need or reach for it, or fight anyone for it, it was just there. I was talking to Jesse and then he pointed up and said "hey, look" and there was the shirt flying for my face. It was a pretty lame shirt, but I was all like "Dude!!! This is the first time I ever won something at a game!!" It was pretty exciting. When we dropped Jesse off, I gave him the shirt. I didn't really want it. I didn't tell him that, I just threw it at him when he got out of the cat. It would have been mean to tell him I gave it to him because I didn't want it, right? I mean, "I don't want this. You can have it." IDK, it seems almost rude to me. (Jesse, if you're reading this....umm...I adore you? haha)

Yeah...but umm...at the game....there were ads for like 4 concerts...and I want to go to all of them and mentioned it to Jesse. Like the ad would come up and I'd be "Oooo! I want to go see that!" And...umm...then Jesse was all like "Well, which one do you want to go to the most?" And I was like "I don't know." I ended up narrowing it down to two. Then after the game he started asking about how much tickets to the concerts would cost. And I was like (in my head) "oh, crap...I hope he isn't planning on asking me on a date. I mean, maybe if we went as friends it'd be cool.... I've gone places with Brandon as friends....." But I'm still worried....I mean, I don't know what Jesse is thinking when he asks me about concerts or tells me that he's going to take me for dinner at Sizzler as a way of saying thank you for taking him to the game (and as a b-day present too). I don't want to date Jesse. I don't want to go on dates with Jesse. I don't mind going places with him as friends. But....he told me a while ago that he wasn't going to date until after his mission and I have a lot of respect for him because of that. If he changed that decisions....I'd be really disappointed.

Sunday was Stake Conference. I remember right after Pres. Larsen's talk, I was all like "Wow..." but I can't remember what it was about. I just remember that I was staring at him in awe. I really need to ask someone about that....

Then I got home and wrote to Seth. I told him about all the changes I've made and about my Mormal dress. Then I sort of just....spilled out some of my emotions and some of the stuff that I've been struggling with. I know that you're not supposed to write to the missionaries about the bad stuff that's happening or negative emotions or stuff because it can be distracting and whatnot, but I also knew that he'd be able to help me with it. And he did. He said exactly what I needed to hear. I feel better now. A lot better. It helps having a missionary for a brother. And I'm not as worried about the future because I know that if I need some advice (that I don't want to talk to Mama about) that Seth will be there for me, and he'll have some of the experience that he needs to help me with it.

Speaking of missionaries, I don't think anyone realizes just how young missionaries are until they have a son (or brother) who leaves for one. I mean, I still can't think of Seth as old enough for a mission. I mean I know that he is (he'll be 21 in 3 months and 5 days!), but it just doesn't feel like he is, y'know? It feels so weird sometimes to look at the elders and think "They're the same age as Seth. Maybe younger." It's really weird thinking that about Elder Whimpy....

Anywho, Steve is yelling at me to get off, so I'm out!

Smoking and Clothing

So I was sitting at the bus stop today with two kids that I recognized from Valley Oaks. I don't actually know them, and I can't tell you their names, but I've seen them around. Anyway, one of them asked me if I smoked. I was all like, "Umm...no....?"
"Oh, you looked like the kind of person who would be."

....ok then....

So, necessary clothing.
Well, first off, it really depend son who you are. For me, here's a list:
1) a polo and some nice jean, preferably with embroidery or bejeweled-ness (for the prep look)
2) a flowy white skirt with a flowy top (preferably white, but other light colors work too) (also should maybe be a peasant top)
3) black jeans
4) silver hoop earrings
5) silver bangle
6) some sort of long necklace with a small pendant
7) guy jeans. I'm not talking about jeans made for girls to look like guy jeans, but actual guy jeans for guys
8) a black button up
9) tank tops in various colors
10) two styles of shirts in every color of the rainbow (I'm talking Roy G. Biv rainbow, not technical rainbow)
11) a shirt that screams 'punk'
12) a top that screams 'goth'
13) fairy wings
14) silver ballet flats
15) some sort of high tops
16) some sort of boots (whether it's combat or stripper or ankle)
17) a nice pair of heels (hooker status or otherwise)
18) tennies
19) socks, underwear, and bras (for girls)
20) something that every time you wear it, you feel pretty


Sadly, I do not own all of my necessary wardrobe items. I don't own the first part of 1, any of 2, 7, enough of 9, yellow or orange shirts or a green t-shirt, wings, silver ballet flats, combat boots (with lots of buckles and chains and stuff! (but not too much)), or pants with lots of chains and buckles and zippers (this didn't make the list because it's not necessary.....just greatly desired)

And a pleated plaid skirt never hurt anyone! especially red plaid with a studded belt.

I also need more belts. I need some plain ones in various colors, some cloth ones in various colors, and some studded ones in (you guessed it) various colors. I have a lot of clothing and accessories that I want. And make up is a necessity. Maybe I'll make a post about what kind of make up I need....actually...that's really easy:
eyeliner (in every color of the rainbow (and multiple shades too (ooo! and metallics and neutrals)))
mascara (in various colors (which they DO have!)
eyeshadow primer (which I do not own and never have....I WANT SOME!!!)
eyeshadow (in as many different colors and shades as possible)
glitter (silver and gold....maybe black....and other colors)

Okay, so when it comes to make up, it's all about options. Lots of colors. No need for lip stuff or blush or foundation, just give me a bunch of eye make-up!! In bold, vibrant colors! I don't want none of those pastels or crap.

Okay, family prayer and bedtime. I'm out!

Exes and Changes

I was thinking about it, and my favorite ex is Cameron. Our relationship is the only one that I can look back on and smile about. My other two had too many issues. Who'd've thunk?

So, all my many many changes.
1) Career change! I'm gonna be a nurse. Pediatric nurse preferably. Maybe a pediatric oncology nurse?
2) No more TV
3) Selective music. No radio. And I probably won't go to dances anymore (besides Mormal)
4) I'm swearing off guys. For at least the rest of the school year. Dates are okay. Boyfriends and kissing are not.

Luckily, the schools around here have pretty good nursing programs. Which means I can save money by living at home. Which is not what I wanted to do, but I guess it works. It totally changes my plans for the future...well, not totally. I'm still gonna get married and have kids and stuff. I just don't think I'll have time to take all the other classes that I want.

I want to learn to be a hairstylist, a make up artist, and I still want to learn massage. Maybe I'll still be able to learn all that. It'll be hard to juggle work, school, and kids (I'm referring to when I'm like 30 or 40).

Here's the plan:
1) finish high school
2) work for a year, or however long I can
3) start nursing program
4) get married
5) finish nursing program
6) have kids
7) work or start beauty school

And live happily ever after.

Anyway, me and Mama are gonna work on the dress, so I'm out!

Shoes and Dresses

I was at Walmart today and decided to stop by at the shoes racks. Cause I need one. I've got 11 pairs of shoes (at least I'm pretty sure that's all I have). So I'm looking and there's one that has four racks and would fit all my shoes and then some, and it would fit under my desk. However! It is almost $20. Whereas I could buy two of the 9-pair racks (which would not fit under my desk unless I did something fancy) for a little under $7. Now tell me, which is the better deal? The one that fits 16, or the one that fits 18 for abour a third of the price? So, if I do get a shoe rack (which I think I will add to the Birthday list), I will probably buy the two. Although....if someone loves and wants to get the 4-tier one for my b-day... One thing about shoe racks, I don't want a door one. I really want one (or two) that will fit under my desk.

While we're talking about shoes, I want a pair of silver flats. For Mormal. Just plain ones, no need for something fancy. Silver ballet flats. To go with my dress. Although...I suppose black ones would work too.....it's just...there's something magical about silver. Don't you think? That's why I prefer my jewelry to be silver. I don't own any silver shoes. I want some more colored flats. I need more color in my wardrobe....I feel so....limited! I mean, I don't own anything orange or yellow. And hardly any green shirts. My white clothing is limited. I need more of everything. Actually, a few specific things. But that will be a later post (note to self - Necessary Wardrobe Additions).

Now, dresses! More specifically: dress (singular). Mormal dress. I have less than three weeks and the actual dress itself hasn't been started. All we've done is cut out the test dress. Part of it is my fault. I put off homework too much and then I'm working on it when Mama gets home. BUT she has work too. That she puts off. To play on Facebook. I do the same, so I can't blame her. But she puts off her lesson plans until the last minute, too. I REALLY hope that it will get done....but the way things are going.....I'm not so sure...

The next post (Changes) should be enlightening and surprising. It was for me when I made tha changes. So, until next time, I'm out!

Dancing with Guy Friends

Tonight was the church dance. And it was AWESOME!!! Some dances, I just can't get into it and the people I'm dancing with keep leaving. But this dance....I danced almost every song. And they had oldies like "Twist and Shout" and "Tootsie Roll," which are SO much fun to dance to!

So, it was pretty great. Except for one thing. Guy friends. A specific guy friend who shall remain nameless but everyone will probably figure out who he is anyway.

This issue is a little complicated. And since I only have 14 minutes until Parental Controls lock me out, there will be lots of typos and possibly a sudden ending.

So, this guy....is annoying. He talks a lot. He calls a lot. But....he's not ALWAYS annoying. Sometimes I really enjoy talking to him....especially lately....cause he doesn't only talk about himself now. He actually asks me questions so that I feel like part of the conversation. The other thing about this guy is that.....well, he likes me. A lot. And to me....he's a friend. He's one of those guy friends who will only ever be a friend. Almost like a gay best friend....except straight. So I honestly don't ever expect to ever have feelings for him.

And then I get to dances. And if it had just happened at this dance, I would just brush it off. But it has happened multiple time (can't give an exact number because I'm not that weird). At dances...he suddenly becomes....attractive. In a way. Like tonight. I actually got jealous when he danced with another girl. I was also seriously tempted to change the answer I gave him when he asked me out. But I think I'll wait on that.

I was worried about this until I talked to a mutual friend of outs. She put it best: this guy is the perfect rebound. Horrible, but accurate. He's a friend that you know will be willing to be more than a friend for you. And it's just so easy to take advantage of that! Poor guy.... He's gonna get his heart broken too many times.

I dunno....I'll give this a few days and if I'm still liking him, I'll tell him. But I'm thinking that it's just a dance thing. Something about him at dances....and his dorky dances and willingness to sit there and talk with you if you don't want to dance. It's...sweet. ....if only he was a better phone conversationalist....and he was actually someone I believed most of the time. Unfortunately, most of the time I'm rolling my mental eyes and thinking "yeah, sure."

Few reasons I don't want to date him:
1) Don't want a boyfriend right now
2) I'd only end up hurting him
3) Don't trust him enough
4) Not sure if I like him that way
5) I dunno. Someone fill in a fifth reason for me.

Oh, well. I will keep everyone updated on this.

Yay! I've got time to spare! Time to fix the typos!

Done with typos. 2 minutes. So I'm signing out!

Broken Glasses and Broken Hearts

I was at the Neville's last night. It was LOUD!! And (since we were the biggest....and because we were paying attention to them) Tasha and I gave the little ones (all 6 of them) piggy back rides and wrestling matches and etc. Which was fun....until I was too tired to walk anymore.

My favorite Neville is Chaz. He's the cutest. That little boy is gonna grow up to be a heart breaker. Then there is Natasha dear. She likes books. We talked to each other in very loud voices about Jesse, who I am taking to Mormal.

Speaking of Mormal...I was originally going to take Jordan, since he was my boyfriend and all. But now....yeah, not happening. So I ended up asking Jesse one day at seminary. The conversation was sort of like this:
Him - Yeah, I don't think I'm going to Mormal. (him and Robert had been talking about it)
Me - Hey, you should go with me!
Him - Oh, I don't know....
Me - No, really, you should.
Him - Okay, I'll tell my mom.

I was all like ".....your mom? whatever"

ANYWAYS!!! I had been planning to make Mormal dinner for me, my date, and whoever else. Originally, I was going to make spaghetti. Because that was mine and Jordan's meal. Yeah, we had a meal, not a song. ...and we had a movie.... A N Y W A Y ! ! ! So, I asked Sis. Neville what kind of food Jesse likes. I was told that he likes lots of food, but there are only a few that he really likes. One of those happens to be lasagna. So I'm making that. But then I had to know if he liked garlic bread. So I wondered out loud 'to myself' (in a very loud voice) if Jesse liked garlic bread. Then Jesse 'randomly mentioned' to his cousin (in a very loud voice) that he did like garlic bread. So, we're going to have garlic bread, too.

More about Jesse (before we get back to my sleepover at Tasha's). Okay, so the night after I asked Jesse, we (the Laurels) made valentines for mutual (which is how I know that I asked Jesse on a Wednesday). I made one for Jesse (and Daniel and Robert and Stevey and Brandon and Lisa). I gave it to him that night (cause I'm bad at waiting). The next morning, at Seminary, he had liked taped it to his shirt over his heart (oh, it was a heart-shaped valentine). I was all like ^///^....but then I had to leave and catch the bus to CalState. Then, on Valentine's Day (which was, as you know, a Sunday), he wore the valentine tucked into his shirt pocket. Ooo! And he gave me chocolate and a homemade valentine card. It was sweet and it made me blush and smile.

Back to last night! ...actually...no, now we're on to this morning. Okay, so we (Ty, Ben, Tasha, and me) were playing Would You Rather...?, which is very very fun. We ended up fighting over a card and roughhousing a little....and my glasses fell off...and (I bet you can see where this is going) I stepped on my glasses and they broke. So...new glasses now....I guess.

Now, I bet you're wondering about the Broken Hearts part of my title. Well, guess what? I just put that there because it sounded right. XP

What? I HAVE to write something about it? ...okay.... well, let's brainstorm some idea.... the break up....nah, I don't wanna. Brandon.....nah, no one cares a bout me breaking his heart (except maybe him). I know!

CHAZ!!!! (cause the fact that he is too young for me is breaking my heart, lol) (also, I apologize for the quality of the pictures. I did not take them. My camera was passed from child to child last night.) (oh, and I like Chaz because he's such a cuddler. He'll just climb into your lap and lay his head on your shoulder. And he's cute when he tells you all the shapes and colors that are around you. Or when he counts. Or when he watches Dora..... I hope I have a son just like him)

Cadence

More about my nieces. More specifically, more about Cadence.

I took her out with me when I went to deliver bread to the Reeves (who I love because they always take whatever food I give them). I left her with Aimee to play in the front yard. We stayed a little longer than I had planned because Cady was having so much fun on the slide. ....I think Aimee traumatized my poor niece. When I handed Cadence off when we first got there, Aimee carried her from behind. Every time that Aimee held Cady, she picked her up from behind. When I tried to pick her up from behind, Cadence started crying and screaming until I turned her around. Then she was perfectly fine.

It was a lot of fun watching her go down the slide. At first, she was terrified (I think part of it was because she knew Aimee was behind her). But then....she went down. She was delighted! She giggled and smiled and we did it again and again and again. Then she saw Mason climb up the slide and decided she wanted to get up that way. So I grabbed her and taught her how to climb the ladder. She wasn't especially interested in that.

Then we got back to Nana's house. BUT Cady wasn't done playing outside, so we went into the backyard. She loves watching the oof play fetch. I'll throw the ball and Oreo will take off and Cady will scream with joy. But today....today we played a new game. Instead of throwing the ball mostly horizontal, I threw it vertical. Her eyes followed that ball as far as they could. I would throw it up and her head would bend back. It was really amusing when she tried to look up and to the side without moving her body. Kerplop!! Hooo!

Apparently, Cady knows a word that Mommy didn't know about: drink. Poor Mommy is finding out all these words that her daughter knows. Let's try and make a list: oof (or dog), meow (or cat), mouth, ear, eye, drink, done, please, thank you, ow. Of course, she only knows these words in a very general sense of the word. But she sure sounds cute saying them!! Heehee!

Okay, Chad wants the computer back, so I'm out!

Nieces

Cady and Megan are over right now. I've actually got Megan in one arm, which means that I am typung entirely with my right hand....and it already hurts, haha.

Right when Sarah left, Cadence started crying. I had to hold her and read to her and even then she would only stop for a while. Then I gave her a piece of my home-made bread and she was fine. I'll have to remember that for when I have toddlers. Megan was a little fussy, but after I held her the right way for a while, she was fine, too. For a while, Steve and I just sort of traded the two of them. I took the fussy one while he held the quiet one. Actually, it was more like Steve held Megan while I tended Cady, and then once Pain-in-the-Butt was settled, I took Megan back. It was fun. I like taking care of them....for a little while. After that.....nah.

Poor Cady isn't getting her treat! Sarah's trying to get her to say please, but Cady isn't having it! Such a stubborn little girl!

So, I know that my nieces have (in a way) their own blog, but they tend to be the most exciting thing in my life. I mean, besides the two of them, I have school and church. Which are great and all....but little girls are much more interesting.

Well, Sarah Rae wants to play her game. So I'm signing off!

Well, I had a purpose for writing this post, but I seem to have misplaced it. So, I think I'll just free write....free type....for a while.

I'm listening to Incubus. I'm currently trying to listen to all the songs on my playlist and delete all of the inappropriate ones. Then I'll delete the ones that drive away the Spirit. Then I'll delete the ones that don't invite It. Which means....in the end.....I will have a very select few songs.

Now I'm listening to Owl City. I think that they will stay through the end. Nickleback probably won't make it very far. I also need to go through and edit my CDs. My music listening is going to change a WHOLE lot.

I also need to work on my eating habits. I've lost a lot of weight recently....but I've gained some back. I lost 20, but I don't know what I've gained back. It's those darn snacks!! And the fact that when I get bored....I tend to....well....I cook. Not because I want to eat it (in fact, I don't), but I end up eating most of it myself anyway.

♫I'd be going boom like an 808. Be making circles like a figure 8♫

Sorry about that. I just felt like typing the lyrics of what I was listening to. *sigh* and I ended up deleting the song....oh, well!

Anywho! I'm trying to eat more veggies....but umm....I don't like them. I like lettuce! and carrots! But not cucumbers or tomatoes or stuff.... Maybe I should try Mama's cucumber chips (cucumber slices with some seasoning salt (good stuff, don't go cheap when it comes to this) and lemon/lime juice). Everyone else seems to like them.

Today I baked some bread and fried some rice. I got lots of compliments on my bread from my Seminary class. But the rice....yeah, I ate it. Actually, there's still some on the stove. It was a little greasy, so later on I'm gonna go add some more rice and fry again!! Yay!

♫This is what we feared. The paleface is a demon. The only thing they feel at all is greed. Beneath that milky hide there's emptiness inside. I wonder if they even bleed.♫

I love that song because of the message it has. ♫They're different from us, which means they must be evil♫ I mean, maybe most people don't feel that way as extremely as they did, but everyone still feels that way. Racism, cliques, etc. It's kinda sad.

Speaking of Disney songs, you should see me when I'm listening to "Zero to Hero." My mother and sister find it quite amusing. Jerks.

Well, I think I'll post and leave it at that.

♫When he smiled, the girls went wild with "ooo"s and "ahhh"s♫

Birthday Wishlist

Okay, so my wishlist is off to your right. You're probably wondering what exactly that palette thing is and what I mean by 1 or 2. No, I don't mean 1 or 2 of the same palette. I mean first or second edition.
Here is the link to the second edition one.

To ze left is a picture of my first birthday present. It is this amazing jean jacket that I fell in love with the first time I saw it. And I love Sarah. A lot.